Journal
Because Im Happy
Rachel Beauty Portraits by Fen by felicia
21
May 2015

As much I would love to always walk with a beat in my step and butterflies in my stomach as a result to sheer happiness, I cant. As much as I would love to be deliriously happy all the time, I cant. There are times when things get in the way or turn out to be something unexpected, and I just want to curl away in a bubble because I am sad. Every time that happens, I think that the best way to move on from that case of the blues is my closing that chapter. Its hard, let me tell you. But I did it. And I will do it again.

Life is made up of many chapters. Each chapter needs an ending, and it needs to be closed before the new ones can begin. Every time I get sad, I tell myself that I need to close the chapter of being unhappy, so that I can begin the new chapter of being happy. Isnt happiness, after all, a choice anyway? As hard as it is, choosing happiness is always the way to go. Its not always the easiest, especially when Im feeling down and all I want to do is wallow in self pity, but it is the choice that brings more goodness to me.

No matter how many times I have been disappointed or hurt, I dont think that I will ever be okay with embracing that feeling. It doesnt feel good. I dont think that I will never be shocked by change and welcome it with open arms every time it shows up at my doorstep, and I think thats okay, because thats human nature. But I realize that everything in life is in a process of becoming something else and that change is the only thing that is constant. And as weird as that may sound, I am learning – every day – to accept the concept of change. I found that by learning to embrace it, it makes moving into a new chapter in life, smoother.

Choose to be happy. All the time. Even when change comes. Even when youre disappointed. Even when you feel down in the dumps. Choose to be happy. And you will walk with that beat in your step, because youre happy.

Love,

Fen

 
 
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